i am a hot mess so hear me rant about how tired i am+ ask me questions+ hamilton!

I thought I would never become the person who writes in lowercase incorrectly but here we are. It’s somehow aesthetic, okay? It’s not the laziness. *Coughs* For once.

So, hi. How are we all doing? I’m just smiling through the pain here while I mentally javelin myself into a trashcan and stay there.


If you can’t already tell, I’m in a weird head space right now and I’m not going to complain as much as rant because this blog is basically my outlet.

I. Am. So. Tired. Right. Now.

I haven’t been uploading very frequently (I mean, it’s not like I have a fixed upload schedule anyway) even though I want to. I have so many ideas that I want to explore but between school, tuitions and all the travelling I do everyday, I’m slowly just withering into a tiny black hole that’s going to explode very soon.

Everything is FINE.

Also, I need my own laptop. My brother and I have been sharing a laptop for years now but he needs it all the time these days because apparently his genuine work is more important than me screaming into the void about books. Rude. (I’m literally writing this on my phone for the first time ever because I don’t have my laptop and I’m salty as frick).

I had to

12th grade (or Senior year for some of you guys) is LITERALLY just a whirlstorm of tests (my phone just autocorrected tests to tears* and I feel that) and exams and assignments and projects and being tired and still somehow procrastinating till I’m running around screaming, haphazardly trying to glue my life back together. The weird part is, I love it. I love this academic messy life. But I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t getting a tad bit overwhelming.

Okay, a lot overwhelming. Good thing I’m sometimes dead inside.

Fact fact, tomorrow is my Biology midterm and I’m a goddamn mess. I mean, I am prepared (actually, this Genetics chapter is glaring at me from my bed right now but we’re gonna ignore that) but I need sleep. I pulled two all-nighters in a row and every time I close my eyes, my brain begs me rest but I’m too anxious to go to bed. It’s pretty great.


And Biology is just the first paper. I’ve got midterms for the whole bloody month and I’m ready to climb inside my wardrobe with some food and not come out.

I’m fine. Totally. *mimes poking my eye out brutally and gently letting it rest on the bed.*

Yes, I’m dramatic so sue me, I just spent a whole night studying how plants reproduce and humans die of morbid diseases. In excruciating detail.

Anyway, I’ve decided to do the logical thing here and start scheduling my posts over the weekend. I’ll see how it goes? Speaking of which, I still haven’t uploaded my August Wrap Up. Um. Oops? But it’s coming! And I’m working really hard on my reviews this time! Usually, I just kind of vomit my thoughts on the book but I’ve been thinking a lot about convenience to the readers and how can I can project my thoughts more solidly to really convince my readers if they want to read the book I’m talking about or not. So, there’s that.



Sometime this month, I was sick in bed and I literally couldn’t bring myself to do anything productive so, in hindsight, I did the most productive thing I could think of and listened to the entire Hamilton soundtrack.

You. Guys. The entire soundtrack is a piece of art. It’s…. priceless. The story, the music, the lyrics, the execution. I’m floored. I feel better about my existence in general because I got to enjoy that. Honestly, though, I plan on learning the lyrics of almost every song. It’s gonna happen. I’ll talk more about my favorite tracks in my September Wrap Up.


Ask Me Questions!

(The only ones I like answering that aren’t on a printed sheet!)

Something very exciting is going to happen in a few days-


I’m going to hit one hundred WordPress subscribers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After almost a whole year of blogging, it’s overwhelming to know that I’ve made this teeny little nerdy community who gets the book lover part of me and share the same obsession. I know 100 followers might not be too many and in comparison, they’re nothing but they’re my nothing.

Okay, get it? “It was nothing but it was Adam Parrish’s nothing.” Yes, I quoted The Raven Boys again, I’m trash, I don’t know why y’all listen to me.

The POINT is, I don’t quite know what to do to celebrate the landmark and I might do a Q&A if I get enough questions. So if you’re reading this, please feel free to ask me anything! Let me feel like people want to know me.

Thank you.



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